Pain.

I've heard people say before "Its okay to tell God how your feeling" As if you need permission, because not only is it "okay" its necessary. Because, God sent his own son, himself in the form of man, to die. The ultimate sacrifice, the greatest thing he could've done. And that's the center of our faith. So, if there was no other way for god, then how can there be any other way for us?

Then he said to the crowd, "If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me. -Luke 9:23

Theres this part in the chronicles of Narnia, This boy has been turned into a dragon, and he goes to the lion and the lion said "if you want to go back to being a human, you have to let me tear your skin off" and so all this time the boy is screaming and hollering, because it hurts. And I think its the same way with us you know? Because if there is no pain, if there's no sacrifice, its not really love. So its OK, to hurt. And its OK to cry. Go ahead. Cry out to God and confess your hurt. Confess your pain. Because it starts there and that's where the healing takes place.

Self Confidence

Ive been having problems in this area of my life. Not going to lie.

I know I know, aren't I the same one that said we're all beautiful in the sight of the lord? Yes. Yes I am.
But even people who truly believe this with all there heart want to be loved by other human beings, am i wrong? Christians are not excluded while we are still human (hardly, id say)

So, how do we fill this hole? i'll give you an answer i'm sure you don't want. Only God can. Because anything else is not true. it won't be there long. Try putting gum over a leak see how long it stays.

Its very easy let someone else's actions determine your mood, but it takes alot more time and effort to go to God and seek him out.

Surrender

The word 'surrender' makes us feel like we're losing. 'Surrendering to god'......that sounds like were going to stop living. Rules. No fun. No laughing. Sounds like hell. But the true is, when you surrender is when you start to live. Its not when you lose your purpose, its finding your purpose. Gods purpose for you. By now you've probably heard:

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.-Jeremiah 29:11

But its true, and trust me, when you surrender, he wont leave you hanging. But you'll be hanging on to him. Its like he's holding you above a pool of hungry sharks, but don't worry! He wont let you go! Why would the God who created and desires you let you go?!

Those who know your name trust in you, for you, O LORD, do not abandon those who search for you.-Psalm 9:10

Is it even worth it to number the day?

Well I feel like I've totally failed. I haven't been blogging at all. I'm going to stop numbering the days and just keep moving forward.


I feel like I've grown up to fast in the past two weeks. Things I've learned:


-Its not easy to obey God, but its worth it.


-You can't trust humans, their deceitful. If you'll place your trust in them, you'll be disappointed.


-Its an honor to be tested for faith, he wont let you go when you suffer for Christ, why would he abandon you? (Philippians 1:29)


More on these things later.

Day 92 (9/2/10)

The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. (Psalm 9:9-10)

Day 91 (9/1/10)

The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms. (Deuteronomy 33:27)

Day 90 (8/31/10)

It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not fail you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed. (Deuteronomy 31:8)

Day 89 (8/30/10)

My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest. (Exodus 33:14)

Day 88 (8/29/10)

Hey guys :) I had a GREAT time at the party, and you'll see picture soon.
And I still cannot believe what God allowed me to do, I taught the sun. school class! IKR!well ill tell u guys about it l8r!

Day 87 (8/28/10)

So school started this week, I'm so happy! It seems as though finally everything is going right...despite all the bad things that are happening.

I basically really wanted to just be well liked this year...which has happened! Granted, I'm not 'popular' nor is that what i'm aiming for. Its just, nobody 'hates' me from what i'm aware of. Sure theres people that gossip about me, but its a small few. And I don't trust/care about them anyways.

Everythings just great. And tonight is fiona's party. Maybe pictures for you guys? :)

Day 77 (8/18/10)

"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear ... "
1 John 4:18

Day 76 (8/17/10)

"And Jesus said unto them ... , "If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to younder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible to you."
Romans 1:17

Day 75 (8/16/10)

 God knows how often I pray for you. Day and night I bring you and your needs in prayer to God, whom I serve with all my heart, by spreading the Good News about his Son.  -Romans 1:9


Don't you see?! God GAVE us eachother so we could lift eachother up daily, pray for those who surround you, with all your heart.

Day 74 (8/15/10)

Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sins. -1 peter 4:8 

I know I say this alot, but love really is stronger than hate. Dont stop loving.

Day 73 (8/14/10)

Do what is good and run from evil so that you may live! Then the LORD God of Heaven's Armies will be your helper, just as you have claimed.- Amos 5:14


I know Ive been running toward evil, and others have to, its time we turn around and run into gods arms.

Day 72 (8/14/10)

So the other day I was feeling sort of worthless. Like there was no way I could share Jesus with people, every time I had witnessed to people they had always rejected. I got angry with God, questioning him "Well God, whats the use of me taking the 'narrow path' if clearly nobody is benefiting!?!" 

I had pulled out my laptop and listened to the song "Light up the sky" by the afters. (Listen to light up the sky here) I had heard this song on the radio and I really liked it, It had been camping out in my head for awhile. So I looked it up and paid attention to the lyrics. And realized "God, I need you to light up the sky to show me you are with me" just like the song says. The lead singer from "the afters" sat down and described the story behind this song: 

“Light Up the sky is a song about how God is with us when we need him most. Whether it was God leading the Israelites through the night guided by a pillar of fire, or times in my own life when I felt like I was alone and I wondered where God was. Every time God would send a sign to show me he was with me. No matter what we’re going through, no matter what we’re facing in our life. God has a path for us, and if we focus on his word and focus on him he will lead us to that path, and lead us along his way.”

“Another thing that I was thinking about just the other day is how every morning the sun rises, and that’s a tangible reminder that God is with us, and created us. So, every morning when you see the dark give way to the light of the sun- that’s a reminder.”

(Watch the video of "story behind the song" with josh) 

So anyways after I was done watching that, I put away my laptop, and headed upstairs to my room. It was about midnight so it was pitch black. I had my blinds on my window pulled up so I could see the meteors everyones talking about.

So I randomly got a text message from one of my best friends (since we were six. were literally sisters) saying she'd accepted Christ and wanted to know where to got from there. WOW!

And at that very moment I looked up from that text message and out the window, without any warning, (no thunder, no rain   or anything) these huge strikes of lightning lit up the sky and you could see everything for one second.

And just like the song said, God physically and spiritually lit up the sky to show me he was with me.

If you ask God to send you a sign, he will. You just have to watch for it and have enough wisdom to say "Thats god". I think alot of times God tries to tell us stuff we just don't listen.

Day 71 (8/13/10)

Hey all :) So today....I really have nothing to say. I feel like so much has happened I still need to let it sink in its ridiculous. Keep my medical issues in prayer, and yeah. I'm not sure you guys understand how good it is to have a good blog everyday.....

Day 70 (8/12/10)

Do everything without complaining and arguing, so that no one can criticize you. Live clean, innocent lives as children of God, shining like bright lights in a world full of crooked and perverse people.    - Phillipians2:14-15 


This verse pretty uch speaks for itself, I find its so true though, if you don't complain, or argue, or question, things go so much easier! 

Day 69 (8/10/10)

So if you guys remember yesterdays blog when I mentioned:

Then I said to you, “Do not be terrified; do not be afraid of them. The LORD your God, who is going before you, will fight for you, as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes, and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place.” – Deuteronomy 1:29-31   


And I thought about when I was little, my dad would hold me by my hands and walk around with me like that, at first I'd squeal and shout with delight, but then, I'd think "oh no! what if I fall!" but my dad would say "Its ok, i gotcha!"


And I find that so true with us, and our life, why do we fear falling if we know our father is holding onto us? If even our earthly fathers don't let us fall, you can be darn sure our ultimate heavenly father wont. So why in the world are we so anxious and fearful?! Hold on and enjoy the ride, and don't waste time on things that don't matter.


~Stacy

Day 68 (8/10/10)

Then I said to you, “Do not be terrified; do not be afraid of them. The LORD your God, who is going before you, will fight for you, as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes, and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place.” – Deuteronomy 1:29-31                      

  it seems that life constantly gives us reason to be terrified. When we feel that we have mastered one season of life, the season changes! Yet when we realize that it is God who carries us we can go past the fear into faith toward God. He is a faithful father who will carry us all the way until we reach our final destination. This can give us the courage to face our internal and external adversaries and go forward.

          

Day 67 (8/09/10)

Ok so for the 3 or 4 people that actually read this, You know I've gotten of track with the blogs, just wanted to let you know im starting from here and will keep going.

Day 66 (7/19/10)

Oh, don't worry; we wouldn't dare say that we are as wonderful as these other men who tell you how important they are! But they are only comparing themselves with each other, using themselves as the standard of measurement. How ignorant!  - 2 Corinthians 10:12 

I've been having this issue lately, I tend to compare myself to others, then God reffered me to Day 63 , I am my own unique self. I should be comparing myself to Gods standards, not theirs.

In my mind, I always think:

"I bet ____ see's me as I see ______"

The first blank tends to be someone that is more popular, or higher social status ranking than I am. The second blank usually tends to be someone lower ranking/ annoying.

But those people really don't matter. Explain why they don't matter in tomorrow blog :)

Day 65 (7/18/10)

So the other day I was thinking about how I don't really know my brother, but I've lived with him every day for 13 and a half years; sounds silly, huh? But then God revealed something to me:

He's been with me everyday of my life, but I didn't know him until this past January. I still don't know as much as I should now. Just thought that was interesting...

Day 64 (7/17/10)

Just wanted to let yall know I have a boyfriend. :)

Day 63 (7/16/10)

So theres been a couple of times in my life were I've felt I had no real friends, more of acquaintances, pals, people I can only joke around with, but not dare to share any issues with. Well in this past year God has supplied me with real friends. Friends that I can trust. Friends that are loyal. 

So yesterday I took time to thank him:

"......And God I thank you for giving me such reliable friends I can go to, their awesome."

"you know your awesome too!"

"What? No! I mess up so frequently, how can *I* possibly be awesome!?!" 

"Your not perfect, you know nobody is, I've created you how I want you, don't worry! You're just as much of a blessing to them as they are to you!"

Wow. Now thats *awesome*. Not macaroni and cheese awesome either ;) (inside joke) 

"I will praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are your works, and my soul knows very well." the word 'fearfully' means: with great reverence and heart-felt interest and respect. The word 'wonderfully' means: unique, set apart, uniquely marvelous. WOW! No wonder the psalmist bursts out with exuberant praise in this verse. He realized the great love and concern that went into his unique and very individual creation. Your one of God's greatest creations.....don't forget that!

Day 62 (7/15/10)

So today we got icecream, and rented a movie!  happiness!

Day 61 (7/14/10)

So today I experienced something so hypocritical I can't even communicate the disgust. So I was invited by a friend to go to their youth group, their youth pastor had a sermon that was long and made no real point. Basically, though, it was about welcoming new people, you know, attracting them so they'll come back, and feel loved, right? Well nobody, including the youth pastor talked to me afterwards. I felt SOOOOOO LOVED........NOT!!!

Day 60 (7/13/10)

Happy day 60! :)

Whatever you do, do well. For when you go to the grave, there will be no work or planning or knowledge or wisdom. -Ecclesiastes 9:10 (New Living Translation)


I Just cannot get over this verse, I think I mightve mentioned it awhile back, but I feel it's relevant to all of us. Maybe some of you hardcore blog readers remember the time when I went through procrastination. Well, I still do! Its not as bad, but my biggest problem is doing something and not doing it to my best ability, like these blogs, im tired of slacking off......

Day 59 (7/12/10)

So i'm sure by now you've all heard Kris Allen's song "Live like we're dying", if you haven't, your probably living under a rock. GET A LIFE! Just kidding.... Anyways, It wasn't until the other day I actually looked at the meaning of the song, and I feel it's completely relevant to our lives.

I'm sure if you knew you weren't promised another tomorrow you'd tell someone you loved them, or tell them about your faith.

Well friends, the truth is, we aren't promised another tomorrow. Do what needs to be done and don't be ashamed. Make the most of life thats borrowed.
~Stacy

Day 58 (7/11/10)

Hey everybody SO so sorry for the slack blogs lately!

Day 55 (7/10/10

Hey everybody. I'm pretty broken right now. God has proven me wrong once again. I was fearing man over god, and he showed me what happens when we do that. You cant rely on people. That simple
~stacy

Day 54 (7/9/10)

OMG, guys it is LATE, Im sooooo sorry, crap. I just remembered this now, im sorry guys your gonna wanna kill me ik ik :) hahah CRAP! its almost tomorow!

Day 53 (7/08/10)

dang you guys this is not even funny. Im sooooooo confused. I cant think of what to write. Im having guy issues? update later....... :(
~Stacy

Patience in Non-violent wars-Day 52 (7/07/10)

bSo for those of you who dont know, I always have to get the last word in and argument. I cannot be satisfied with walking away undeclared the winner. Which usually gets me in trouble.

Whenever theres a problem, a fight arises, which brings violence. We get frustrated when someone doesn't see eye to eye with us. So we shut out the other person, get angry, and say things we don't mean......which gets us in trouble. And DOES NOT bring glory to our savior.

"Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires"                             James 1:19-20 (New Living Translation)

Remember this next time you get angry.
~stacy

Day 51 (7/6/10)

Hey everybody. Right now i'm incredibly content. Its CRAZY. I absolutly adore this feeling. Anyways, its late, I KNOW, my blogs have been crappy lately :/ SORRY!

DAY 50!!!!! (7/5/10)

OK, i know i know i know! this is going to be up late! however, im writing it now, i wasnt allowed to go on it for some reason or another.......gosh im tired of this, all the time in this house it feels like im freakin walkin on eggshells. Its obnoxious.

ANYWAYS!
HAPPY DAY FIFTY!
fifty days of consecutive days! wow, its crazy, it doesnt feel like it.......

Fourth of July Day 49 (7/4/10)

Hey every body :) im doing this a day late i know, I literally did not have time, because i got home at 12!
~stact

48 (6/03/10)

Well, Sometimes life just doesnt make much since. If you haven't found this out you will soon.
It seems as though im suffering, and everyone else is along for the ride.
Just gotta keep holdin on.
~Stacy

47 (7/02/10)

Ok everybody. soooo basically today was super crazy so let me explain what happened.
Alright, so my brothers friend from church was doing somethings, yahdah yahdah yahdah... ANYWAYS, Thats not what Im here to talk about. What Im here to talk about is what God showed me today through this.  So basically he was doing things in his house his parents didnt approve of......don't ask me what those things were.......because im not allowed to know. Anyways, his parents said, thats not going to be approved of in our house. And kicked him out, im not going into detail of his personal life, so Im not going to tell you there reasons. On with the story........

So he stayed at our house today, and hes buying his own apartment, and going to live there. It amazed me though, because later on my dad said, "do you have soap?" and he had forgotten soap, so he said "no" so he said "dont worry about it well get you some soap, and some wash rags."

Now you may not've gotten anything out of that...but I sure did. I mean, what a blessing that is!
That even when so many people have turned his back on him, hes still provided for. Thats God.

And I had just asked God you know, "I always hear about you doing great things, but God how come I never experienced this? How come I read in the bible about your miracles, but you never do them now?!?"

WELLLL, he showed me. God uses people to bless eachother, it may appear to be the person themselves, but its God. And God's showed me how I'm able to bless other people everyday to bring him glory.

Just thought i'd share that.
~Stacy

Day 46 (7/1/10)

Hey Guys. Well I've just been thinking about something somewhat deeply lately.
You see, theres a magician thats atheist, and someone tried to give him a bible, he declined, but he posted a video teary-eyed, talking about "how can christians not tell people about this?!?!"
I ask myself this same question.
How can I not share christ?!?!?

What if everyone in your village was dehydrated, and you found a river, thats unending, and its the cleanest most purest water in the world. WHY would you *NOT* tell the others?!?
Thats selfish! and its not like you'll run out of water for yourself, it never ever runs out.

If you know the person next to you is thirsty, offer them a drink.
~stacy

Day 45 (6/30/10)

So right now, its 11:20, and im typing this in the notepad feature on my phone, I totally forgot! well this thing cant hold many characters, so i've gotta go! and i'm tired! so bye!
~stacy

Day 44 (6/29/10)

Why don't we share christ? Because we afraid. Why are we afraid? We have Jesus....right?
We're Afraid of the unknown.

Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see. ~Hebrews 11:1 (New Living Translation)

We have to trust god will take care of us, and do his work weve been called to do to bring him glory.

Day 43 (6/28/10)

Ok guys....... I'm aware this isn't going to be uploaded today.  I completly forgot about it until now (11:43PM). So i'm truely sorry for the slack blogs I promise tommorow's will be good.

Day 42 (6/27/10)

Hey everybody. I wanted to talk about trust. You can't trust people. Ecspecially in the church. Today we had a guest speaker. He said obama was a muslim, and muslims are the enemy. The worst part: the congregation said "amen". WTF?!?!?!?!
!!!!!!!
???????????????
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~stacy.

Day 41 (6/26/10)

Ok so I told you guys i'd explain the Macrobiotic. So first of all I'd like to exlpain this is in no way because I believe I am fat. I do, however, believe my diet is unhealthy.

So the macrobiotic heals the body. Really it does. Theres been people diagnosed with untreatable cancers and illnesses and were told to go home and die, yet, theyve gone on this diet, and its healed them. How is this possible?

The american diet today, as you've most likely already discovered, is extremly unhealthy. Well, the typical human body is EXTREMLY acidic. Which is where cancer survives. Rather than alkaline. Which is what this diet consists of. And cancer cant live in alkaline. But the American Cancer Society doesnt recommend people using diet, theyd rather drip poisons (aka, chemo) in ill innocent people and watch them die. I'll talk about that tommorow.

I know we dont have cancer. BUT its not just cancer its all around health, your hair becomes healthier, your skin EVERYTHING. (which=no more acne!) Im not sure when were going on this diet. But i'll keep you guys updated.

Day 40 (6/25/10)

Hey everybody! Day 40! wow!
Anyways I just wanted to inform you about this diet me and my family are going on, called the macrobiotic diet, soon, sorry I REALLY dont have time to explain it now, later though I promise.

Day 39 (6/24/10)

Ok. So I know this is going to be a crappy blog today :( sorry.

Day 38 (6/23/10)

So everyones gone through a hard time, gotten through it, and realized how much they've attained from it. Wow, it did happen for a reason. Well how come we can't have that mindset when were suffering? Something to chew on...

Day 37 (6/22/10)

FRIENDS. FAMILY. LOVED ONES.
I cannot stress enough how much I believe God gave us eachother for a purpose.

1st Corintians 12:12-27 (New Living Translation)

"The human body has many parts, but the many parts make up one whole body. So it is with the body of Christ. Some of us are Jews, some are Gentiles, some are slaves, and some are free. But we have all been baptized into one body by one Spirit, and we all share the same Spirit. Yes, the body has many different parts, not just one part. If the foot says, “I am not a part of the body because I am not a hand,” that does not make it any less a part of the body. And if the ear says, “I am not part of the body because I am not an eye,” would that make it any less a part of the body? If the whole body were an eye, how would you hear? Or if your whole body were an ear, how would you smell anything? But our bodies have many parts, and God has put each part just where he wants it. How strange a body would be if it had only one part! Yes, there are many parts, but only one body.The eye can never say to the hand, “I don’t need you.” The head can’t say to the feet, “I don’t need you.” In fact, some parts of the body that seem weakest and least important are actually the most necessary. And the parts we regard as less honorable are those we clothe with the greatest care. So we carefully protect those parts that should not be seen,  while the more honorable parts do not require this special care. So God has put the body together such that extra honor and care are given to those parts that have less dignity.This makes for harmony among the members, so that all the members care for each other. If one part suffers, all the parts suffer with it, and if one part is honored, all the parts are glad. All of you together are Christ’s body, and each of you is a part of it. "

Paul wrote this to the Corinthians to explain ranking people is WRONG. Humans tend to mentally rank people by how worthy they believe they are, which usually reflects on the way they treat the lower ranked people, which leaves them feeling worthless. But if you look at that passage you learn we all fit together in harmony, like the human body, and we all need eachother. So why do you treat people the way you do? WHY does the United States of America  the World have people starving? How come when I walk out on the streets I see people holding up signs begging for food, and we drive by casually as if it doesn't matter? Why are people living on the streets?!?!? IN AMERICA?!?!

For those of you who are not aware, my mom works at Chick-fil-a and she shared a true heartbreaking story that happened just yesterday. A man came in and asked for some water, clearly homeless, dehydrated, and starving. The workers were happy to bless him with it, and they also brought him a meal. Teary-eyed he said "Thank You".

WHY should that have to happen?!?! Im sure theres alot of christians who are aware of his condition, why dont you help him?!?! And It doesn't even have to be that serious of a case, im talking on a day to day basis. We all see people who could be helped out, why dont you help?

After all, we can't do it without them.

~Stacy Partin

Day 36 (6/21/10)

People may be right in their own eyes, but the LORD examines their heart ~Proverbs 21:2

Incase you haven't already noticed, we live in a world where everyone has thier own opinions. And everyone always has to be right. Mankind can't come close to the thought of being wrong. But where does your perspective come from? HOOPEFULLY it always lines up with gods word. Ask God to help you change your perspective.
~stacy partin

Day 35 (6/20/10)

If you try to hang on to your life you'll lose it, but if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it. ~Matthew 16:25 (New Living Translation)

On the radio they have this thing called "word on the way" which Is basically just a daily bible verse read from a popular artist. Anyways this happened to be one of them.

The verse sounds almost like a riddle, and it is something we could pass easily without getting the significance of what is being said. When Jesus said if we try to save our lives, we will lose our lives, what he was saying was, if we insist on keeping control of our lives, we will absolutely destroy our lives.

The context around the verse is even more humbling.

Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me.If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it.And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul?Is anything worth more than your soul? For the Son of Man will come with his angels in the glory of his Father and will judge all people according to their deeds.And I tell you the truth, some standing here right now will not die before they see the Son of Man coming in his Kingdom.” ~Matthew 16:24-28

In essence, Jesus was giving up his life that we might have life, and that He might return to the Father to really reclaim his life as the Son of God. He was giving up his life and telling his disciples they must follow him in dying as well.

We all want to preserve our lives, it is a natural human tendency. Usually though, we also take it further than that, and want to run our lives the way we want to. We want to be our own gods, the controller of our own destinies.

Remember in the Garden of Eden, the serpent told Eve “you will be like God”, Since then mankind has tried to be his own god. Jesus is saying, if we continue to live like that, in rebellion, instead of preserving what we are holding onto (our life) we will destroy it.

Jesus calls us though, to something much more radical.

Just as he was headed for the cross to be crucified, he also calls us to be crucified. Not with wood and nails, but in our spirits by faith as we identify with his crucifixion and resurrection.

He says to us, if we try to hold on to our lives, any of the things we hold on to that give us a sense of existence or security, we will end up losing not only what we thought was good, but our lives as well.

So really, we must die to live. Let go of what we once held so closely to us (you know, the things that used to matter...) for something far greater. As Galations 2:20
says.......

My old self has been crucified with Christ.It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me ~Galations 2:20 (New Living Translation)
~Stacy Partin

Day 34 (6/19/10)

Ok guys I hope you've all had the oppurtunity to experience the feeling i'm currently feeling. An Incredible peace and contentment has come over me.

Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls.For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.” ~Matthew 11:28-30

~Stacy Partin

Day 33 (6/18/10)

So at the moment I am very impatient. I want so badly to be ungrounded and free to enjoy my summer vacation. But it was my mistake I got here. And I know i'm blessed to have parents who love me enough to punish me. But as I said in my last post, sometimes we just need to be cleaned.

~Stacy Partin

Day 33 (6/17/10)

So i've discovered maybe I don't have this christian thing down like I thought I did. I've been going through the motions. Playing church, listening to christian music, posting bible verses on twitter, wearing christian t-shirts... All the typical, media-portrayed christian act. All of the things listed are GOOD (well except "playing church") But it is not the true christian experience.

I remember once when I was about 6, my mom saw how messy my room was, she got super mad and commanded me to clean it, so I took the easy way out. Since I was lazy, and shoved everything into my closet. It was "clean". So It came to be bed time, and as my mom went to get my pajamas out of my closet, she discover what I had done.

I feel this relates to my life as a christian, christians LOVE to hide things. They love it. They make everything APPEAR spotless and pure, but its all just an illusion. I dare you to look in thier closet....trust me you'll change your mind....

So sometimes we need to let God TRUELY clean us. Because we can't do it ourselves.

My son, do not despise the LORD's discipline, and do not resent his rebuke, because the LORD disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in. ~Proverbs 3:11-12

Alot of times Its hard to remember that when God's cleaning us. So we choose to blame god, Rather than thanking him.

Whats in your closet?
~Stacy partin

Day 32 (6/16/10)

Illegal Immigrants.
We all have our views about them. I'd like to share mine and back up my beliefs with what the bible teaches.Which, if your a christian, should determine your outlook on everything.

The topic of illegal immigration is always a sticky subject. Because, on one hand, they are here illegally, and using our tax dollars while doing so. But on the other hand they are also God's children. We've all heard "Love your neighbor as yourself" and "Love your enemies, Pray for those who persecute you" at least a million times. But those two verses mean everyone, not just people who are in your country legally. You might be also thinking "well the bible also says not to break the law, but they still do!" I dare you to check out Levitus 19:33-34.

"Do not take advantage of foreigners who live among you in your land.The stranger who dwells among you shall be to you as one born among you, and you shall love him as yourself; for you were strangers in the land of Egypt: I am the LORD your God."

WOW. If that doesnt give you an answer i'm not sure what will. And since these foriegners are already here, and theres nothing you can do about it, shouldn't we treat them kindly anyways?

And even if you aren't a christian, you should still agree, everyone deserves respect.
~Stacy Partin

Day 31 (6/15/10)

Hey Everybody its Stacy. I know, I know, this is going to be put up late. I'm very aware of this and I apoligize sincerely. Please don't grill me.

The reason these are going to be up late is because I got grounded. Why? basically why im grounded is due to my attitude problem. I've lost my cell phone and my laptop. If these blogs wernt online it wouldnt be that big of a deal. But it is. So I'll be writing these blogs down on paper; then when I've earned back my computer privelages back, i'll transfer it.

I don't know how long i'll be grounded. It could be all summer possibly. I'm not allowed to ask. Being grounded isnt actually all bad. It has allowed me to be stripped of all my materialistic things that get in the way of me doing what needs to be done.
Thats all for today.
~Stacy Partin

Day 30 (6/14/10)

Whatever you do, do well. For when you go to the grave, there will be no work or planning or knowledge or wisdom. -Ecclesiastes 9:10 (New Living Translation)

I touched on this awhile ago (refer to day 10) but now that i've found this, it expresses my thoughts on this where my words fail. But my question to everyone, well those who follow christ, is WHY do we fear man over christ? Should it not be the other way around?!?!

At the end of it all we'll be in his arms, well, spirtually speaking, we are right now. But we'll be in heaven then.

It seems so tragic that everyone under the sun suffers the same fate. That is why people are not more careful to be good. Instead, they choose their own mad course, for they have no hope. There is nothing ahead but death anyway -Ecclesiastes 9:3 (New Living Translation)

But as christians that should not be our mindset, this explains why:

Don’t let anyone think less of you because you are young. Be an example to all believers in what you say, in the way you live, in your love, your faith, and your purity. Until I get there, focus on reading the Scriptures to the church, encouraging the believers, and teaching them.
-1 Timothy 4:12 (New Living Translation)

That is the reason why I act the way I act, you should to. As my youth pastor said, you may very well be the only representation of christ anyone ever gets. And I sure know I want everyone to experience this love, compassion, and security that I have the oppurtunity to experience everyday. Set an example.
~Stacy Partin

Day 29 (6/13/10)

Hey everybody. Well today.... it pretty much sucked. Everything from my stalker at church, to getting asked by a little girl if I was a boy, to having my parents yell at me for nothing....all of it SUCKED. sorry this blog sucks today :/
~stacy

Day 28 (6/12/10)

Hey everybody! So today was my brothers graduation, it just made me smile to see him walk across the stage...
So many memories together.........
See when we were little, and our oldest brother was about our age, we played together alot. ah.... I just cant believe it......
~Stacy Partin

Day 26 (6/11/10)

So I hope you guys remember when I was talking about perspective two days ago. Well I found this quote from Buddha that went along with it, YES I am a christian, but I think this lines up with Gods word perfectly. Anyways, heres the quote:
"The mind is everything.
What you think, you become."
-Buddha
And I just thought it was perfect for my blog! Its so true!
We all have these mental clips we play over and over, and its great, but the thing is *what* are the clips? THOSE are youre desires! THOSE are youre very personal thoughts. Buddha put it well, what you think, you become. Dont let materialistic items, lust, or people consume your thoughts, It will consume you.
Think about what you think about.
~Stacy Partin

Day 25 (6/10/10)

Hey Everybody :) Today was the last day of school. The feeling is surreal and bitter-sweet. I can't even believe I made it here....at this point, I cant even picture two weeks ahead, much less the end of the year. Its wierd. This year has been, once again, bitter-sweet. I wish I wouldve developed more relationships with people, because, well, because I had the oppurtunity to. Anyways, I hope you enjoy these pictures :)

Day 24 (6/9/10)

Perspective? Whats yours?
What Is a perspective?
Perspective- a way of regarding situations or topics etc.

Have you ever noticed, when your doing something with a good attitude, you complete the task correctly, without complaint. Imagine If we completed everything with this attitude.... wow.
Something to chew on...
whats your perspective?
~stacy

Day 23 (6/08/10)

So I need to consunt you guys about something i'd like your input on, so Im thinking about making this blog more detailed about my life, like a diary, then about once a week, I'll have a blog thats really deep. What do you think? comment below.
~stacy

PS. If you dont have a blog you can always email me at:
partin_ycats@yahoo.com

Day 22 (6/7/10)

I would ask please keep my family in prayer. My moms aunt has a tumor on her stomach and when they tried to put her in surgery, it was so big they couldnt remove it without damaging surrounding organs. Sometimes in life, things just flat out suck. And theres nothing you can do to control it. Its not your fault, but you still have to suffer. The tensions are so high right now...I dont even know this lady and I feel like breaking down...

Day 21 (6/06/10)

Inertia- Physics. The tendency of a body to resist acceleration; the tendency of a body at rest to remain at rest or of a body in straight line motion to stay in motion in a straight line unless acted on by an outside force.

I've found that there is more than one source of "inertia" in our lives. The physical type of intertia we all learned about in fifth grade, and the spirtual kind. More commonly reffered to as "Mental inertia". And you guessed it, thats what i'm going to be talking to you about today. My dad was reading me something about this the other day and I thought: "wow I have GOT to blog about this."

Mental Inertia is when you invision something good in your mind (mental) but you dont have the motivational push to get you there (inertia). This is a very common problem among human beings. Its human nature to wish to feel safe. This is a good thing, but at the same time, we need to take some ort of initiative to get where we dream of. The problem with humans is were always afraid to take that first step. I encourage you this week to rid your selfish insecurities, and get to were you want to be.
~stacy.

Day 20 (6/5/10)

20th day vlog!!!!

Yes I am very proud of myself too. And you guys arent going to have a boring vlog today, TRUST ME! It'll actually be pretty long. Anyways, I really hope you guys are proud of me too! although theres only like 3 of you following this.At first I wasnt really concerned about having alot of followers, but I sorta want people to follow it though. Im not sure. I think I might have a couple parts of this blog just to organize it because its so long, im not ADD you guys I just have alot to talk about.

SO the first thing I'd like to talk about is my field trip to the zoo yesterday.

Yesterday was National donut day, and at Dunkin Donuts, if you bought a beverage, you got a free donut. We had a delightful breakfast at Dunkin Donuts. :D (random fact: for those of you who didnt know, I LOVE Dunkin Donuts!!!)

Then on the bus ride there (FOUR HOURS LONG!) it actually wasnt that bad I enjoyed being with my friends. But since I woke up at five, I was tired. My friend Joseph let me borrow his jacket and fell asleep. Aylin and dani took pictures:

Then we got to the Zoo :) we ate lunch, and there were geese all around it was fun! We got to feed them, they wernt shy either. After that we started going throught the African safari part of the Zoo; it was really depressing, because the teachers shuffled us so quickly through everything. oh and on the way home our ghetto little bus broke down :(

But we had a great time. Now ive decided not to include the deep little section I was going to put. I'll save it for tommorow.

Day 19 (6/4/10)

Day 19...wow.
Its really hard to believe. It feels like yesterday. It reminds me how much time ive wasted. I could've really helped some people, I couldve impacted lives forever. I was way to concerned about getting out of school and being done, it sent my motives out of whack.
Live like your dying!

Day 18 (6/3/10)

Im SO sorry guys! this is gonna be the third sucky blog in a row! I really dont have time to do a good one, because i gotta wake up at 5 tommorow, were going on a field trip to the zoo! (pictures maybe?) but yah. GOSH! I hate it when this happens its like, I wait to the last minute, and you guys end up getting a crappy blog for that day! GOSH!
~Stacy Partin

Day 17 (6/2/10)

Hey Everyone :) Im at a writers block today.....I really have no idea what to tell you guys :/ I mean, normally when I have a crappy blog its due to laziness, but I really dont know what to say hear.... hm.

Day 16 (6/1/10)

So today was....well, it was interesting. It was kinda bitter-sweet, great and terrible at the same time. It was great because I actually was very productive, so that was great. But I just had to endure alot. im sorry this is such a short blog.

Day 15 (5/31/10)

Happy memorial day! Wow, cant believe its Day 15 already!
So today I went to a cook out at my youth pastors house. We were in the pool, and we all know the whirl pool, were you get everyone in the pool to swim one direction to create a current. If you try to go the other way, you get pulled back. Its totally impossible UNLESS you hang on to the wall.

God is your wall. Nothing is impossible with him. Nothing is possible without him.

I can do all things through christ who strengthens me
~phillipians 4:13

Day 14 (5/30/10)

So as I was lying in bed last night, a deep thought ran across my mind.
Who am I? How can I be better at the things I do? Why do I hurt people I LOVE? Where am I headed? When ever you create an account on anything, you usually have to fill out informations about yourself....*why* is that so difficult to do?

"You should know yourself better than anyone"

I dont nesecarily (spelling?) believe this is the case. I think a good percentage of the time, friends know us better than we do. And I know God DEFIANTLY knows us better than we know ourselves.
get to know yourself.

Day 13 (5/29/10)

So this will be just a real quick update. Today I saw a commercial for prayer....you read that correctly, A COMMERCIALIZED PRAYER PERSUASION! They were making people *PAY* to call a number for prayer. Promising them materialistic wealth and possesions in return. This world is so screwed up.

Day 12 (5/28/10)

So I know this is random, but, how come humans are SO afraid to show their emotions? Ive noticed people are ecspecially concious about it when it comes to crying.
Why are you embaressed to cry?
If you are, that is? And if you aren’t, why aren’t you embarrassed to?
I was wondering this after noticing how many people are so ashamed to cry in front of others. They’ll hide it and deny it and not do it, and I was wondering from you personally: why?
Comments/Facebook Statuses!
~stacy

Day 11 (5/27/10)

Hey everybody :)
So lately Ive just been living. I feel dead. I *hate* this feeling. I feel like im just going day by day, always waiting for something. Im tired of waiting. And when Its finally over, I want to start over again. So WHY cant I just make the most of everything? Life is good. Take advantadge of it.
~stacy

Day 10 (5/26/10)

Have you ever noticed when you are doing something you love you focus on that. And only that.
What if you had that same type of motive for everything?
Washing the dishes,
mowing the lawn,
doing school work,
imagine how much more effciently we could accomplish those tasks if we said "THIS is what I want to be doing right now"
We'd all have a much better mindset on things.
~stacy partin

Day 9 (5/25/10)

Ok guys, i know yesterdays was a really stupid blog, and todays is gonna be to. But I PROMISE tommorows will be better. SOOOOOOO Sorry guys!

~stacy.

Day 8 (5/24/10)

Love your neighbor as yourself.
The "golden rule"
Weve all heard it at least a bazillion times since we were 3 years old. Today (or if its at night, tommorow) I challenge you to put it in action.
That is all.
~stacy

Day 7 (5/23/10)

Fear. Doubt.
Its something we've all been raised to live in. Whether you realize it or not, you are. Look around. Were raised to be overly concious of minor things that can possibly be a slight risk to us. My parents dont even allow me to walk down the street alone due to potential incidents that will probably never happen, such as me being abducted. Its human nature. Its logic. Logical thinking kills you. Am I saying you should jump of the edge of your house onto a pile of rocks? No. Thats not what i'm saying. Im talking about things were called by God to do, yet do to our selfish insecurities, we'd rather stay where we are.

"Boldly following God means we can't fear loss, cause fearing loss will hold us back from ever taking risks... " ~Alyssa Barlow

Faith is like a flashlight, you can only see so much, you have to keep walking to see more and more. Everything might not make since at the time. But you just have to trust that God wont let you fall. (he wont)

"Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see." ~Hebrews 11:1 (New living translation)

"Immediately after this, Jesus insisted that his disciples get back into the boat and cross to the other side of the lake, while he sent the people home. After sending them home, he went up into the hills by himself to pray. Night fell while he was there alone. Meanwhile, the disciples were in trouble far away from land, for a strong wind had risen, and they were fighting heavy waves. About three o’clock in the morning Jesus came toward them, walking on the water. When the disciples saw him walking on the water, they were terrified. In their fear, they cried out, “It’s a ghost!” But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage. I am here!”
Then Peter called to him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.”
“Yes, come,” Jesus said. So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. But when he saw the strong wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink.“Save me, Lord!” he shouted. Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?” When they climbed back into the boat, the wind stopped.Then the disciples worshiped him. “You really are the Son of God!” they exclaimed."
~Matthew 14: 22-33

Did you notice when peter started fearing, and became aware of his potential risks, he fell in. Keep your focus on jesus.
~Stacy Partin

Day 6 (5/22/10)

Alot of people dont take prayer seriously, that bothers me. In some cases, prayer is a chance for people to show of what a big vocabularies they have, or to gossip about people. Most people arent really even sure about *why* we pray.Which leads us to a very important question: why do we pray?

In a world filled with chaos, we pray because prayer is the antidote to anxiety. “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus”. Philippians 4:6-7. We pray because prayer alleviates our weariness. "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest” Matthew 11:28.

So yah, thats it for today.
~stacy partin

Day 5 (5/21/10)

Well guys, today is my fifth consecutive day of blogging once each day. When I started these I knew there would come a time were I would straight up *not* want to do this. I didnt know it would come so soon. But Im not going to stop. I actually like doing this its just.......i don't know. Its just the whole "procrastination" thing. But I'm getting better. I challenge everyone whos reading this (like all 3 of you....lol) to do something and stick to it. It doesnt *have* to be a blog, but feel free to do one. And dont give up (the hardest part).

“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men” (Colossians 3:23). If we put our hearts into our work, as this verse says to do, we will probably find it difficult to procrastinate too much.

~stacy partin

Day 4 (5/20/2010)

ok I want you guys to take a minute to think about something:
What do you *really* want?
When you have time to think about stuff, what do you fantesize about? People? Cars? Clothes? STUFF?!?!?
Does it (what you fantesize about) really matter?
In all honesty, does it matter?
When you go to heaven, none of these earthly things will matter.
So why waste time worshiping things you dont have, rather than telling people theres a god who wants to say them?
your call....
~stacy partin

Day 3 (5/19/20)

A question for anyone whos interested:

Who do you percieve yourself to be?
Cody Pellerin did a blog post on this awhile back (go check him out) but it sadly ended up getting accidently deleted. But today this girl i'm in this "disagreement" with pulled me aside and said "Stacy, do you think your mean?" and I start thinking "oh god help me. what did I do this time?!?" I was like "ummmm no?" not being entirely sure how to answer this awkward question. She said "ok. thats all I wanted to know..."

I know that probably wasnt true, because she had this annoyed little smirk on her face, anyways its not about that. Im not mad at her because I know she said this for a reason: God used her to get to me because I wasnt listening. Whether she know thats why, or not. I know very well why.

Who i've been acting like is not who I am. I apologize to all.
I would say more but I REALLY gotta eat quick so I can get to church.
hope you enjoyed my little confession session ;)
~stacy partinb

Day 2 (5/18/2010)

Ok guys, this is still new to me...but lets see...what happened today...hmmm I took one of my EOG's (end of grade test) today, so i've got the reading out of the way. And i've got two math tests to do, then I'll be done.

And I've just been suddenly aware of how alot of times when I become even become slightly attached to someone, they leave, thats why I'm afraid to love. People change, and plans get changed, I guess the only person that wont is god. Its a tough world.

~Stacy Partin

Day 1 (5/17/2010)

Hey Everybody :) I just wanted to update you guys more often, and ive been seriously considering doing a daily blog thing. And its either gonna be a totally sucky thing to do, or an ok thing, or a really cool thing.

You might be thinking why I would do something like this, well the reason is because ive realized ive been procrastinating alot lately, so i want to do this, and not only say im going to do this, but actually DO it.

And also, im obviously not going to remember everything that happens in my 13th year of life. And I think it might be interesting to look back on this and read what I thought or what happened. And propbably be like "I AM SO STUPID!" ahah :)

I've also come to realize its easier for me to write down what I think rather than say it, because I tend to freeze up in front of people and my brain doesnt function correctly. I know, I know, I sound retarded, but- I dont know, I cant really explain it.

But yah, hope you enjoy them! Day 2 tommorow!
~stacy

hangin on...barely

So, Just when I thought everything was ok, everything fell. Came crashing down.
Its so hard. Im trying so hard to help the broken, when Im broken myself. And the people whose hearts *AREN'T* broken step on ours even more. Its tough.
~stacy

Normal?

Well friends, I've decided there is no normal. Theres just sort of this cling between me and God. Just holdin on.

I hate being in this mode that im in, Its like, Im continuously waiting for something. Waiting for chorus, waiting to get on the bus and go home, waiting to go to bed at night. I hate it. I wanna live.

Finally found an escape.

Hey Everybody :) Just thought I'd take a moment to share this with you.

So metaphoracally speaking, I've built a house around me built with fear and insecurity, and I forgot to put in a door. There was no way out, the walls were closing in on me. I was going to die soon. Then I found out God was standing right there to help me. It sucked quite honestly. It was like he was this huge tornado that came and tore apart my whole life. Well what I thought was life.

Everything that used to matter to me, Everything I used to desire, Everything I held so close to my heart....No longer matters. I never want to turn back.

I accepted christ awhile back, but I realized, I had given him my salvation, but I never completly gave up. Now i've left everything behind. Ive given him everything. My full heart, not part of it.

And its tough. Im totally not saying its easy, don't think that, but its so much better. Im tired of my old life. I hated it.

Now i'm waiting on the lord for him to reveal what he wants me to do. Keep you updated.

~stacy